How to get rid of the role of the victim. What is useful time loneliness
The spouse was carried away by a young and interesting colleague. We were married 19 years old, there are children. He often fell in love, I wondered, believed that this was wise. This time I can not. There was only offense, pity for himself and the desire to take revenge. How to deserve to get out of this situation, keeping respect for yourself?
Natalia, 39 years
Hello, Natalia! You write that this is not the first case. Previously, you have already worried, now feelings broke out. And what happened to you inside during his past hobbies? Not the same insult, pity, hatred? You behaved differently, but what did you feel? I have the feeling that this story has become the last straw, after which your feelings broke out. The fact that you forbade yourself to express emotions about previous love is a very difficult effect. Probably it was hard at these moments not to show how it hurts. On your part, it looks like a sacrifice in the name of the family salvation. When you bring this sacrifice many times, then each subsequent treason beats even more painful - because you do so much and so close your eyes on a lot, but in response you get just the same thing.
On the other hand, losing it, you seem to understand what you can contact you. You will not leave, do not throw, just wait, not paying attention to your feelings. You allowed you to deal with you in the previous time, but this time gave the will feelings. And it is precisely this - wisely and honestly towards himself. You do not close your eyes to your feelings, but live them. There is nothing unworthy to react to treason. Be honest with yourself - it is worthy of admiration. You have the right to respect yourself for listening to ourselves, recognized our emotions, decided on an open conflict instead of silence. You are not obliged to immediately survive all this and become calm and cheerful. Give yourself time.